Aqua Man and I are going through a really trying time right now regarding work, and a possible relocation. Lots of unknowns and maybes and wait and sees. It has required a lot of mental and spiritual fortitude to stay in the moment, to stay positive and to stay detached from a pre-determined outcome that we may think is "the answer." Honestly, as the waves of maybes and who-knows have come, I haven't always been able to ride them very smoothly.
Recently, one of my best friends--I'll call her CaliGirl--sent me an email last week with some words of encouragement. She is very wise and funny and always there to share an honest, strong, and positive mind-frame with me. Her words were few and poignant, and they really resonated with me. So I adopted them as my personal mantra. By now, I've probably repeated them about a thousand times: "I affirm the highest and the best for myself and my family." Over and over I repeat these words. While I'm meditating, and any time my mind wanders to the unknown, or fantasies of what may be, I've brought my mind back to these words; "I affirm the highest and the best for myself and my family."
I can feel a difference from internalizing these words, a shift in my perspective. A focus on calling into my life-our lives-what ever the highest and the best will be. This feels very different from trying to make something work, or spending my time wanting a particular outcome. When I loosen my resistance and practice this perspective, it is freeing, and surprisingly revitalizing. I'm thinking this internal shift has something to do with me unknowingly cultivating a bit more strength and balance, which I discovered in Side Crane yesterday.
I so appreciate yoga and the lessons it brings. And I am so grateful for my friend, CaliGirl, who is always, always there, for me and with me, along this crazy journey. I am also grateful to my other friends, near and far, who inspire me in so many ways that they aren't even aware of.
Oh, yea. And I'm also grateful for coffee cause' I can't live without it. I'm just saying.